My chemical Romance - Cancer

Turn away
If you could get me a drink
Of water cause my lips are chapped and faded
Call my aunt Marie
Help her gather all my things
And bury me in all my favorite colors
My sisters and my brothers still,
I will not kiss you
Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you.
Now turn away,
'Cuz im awful just to see
'Cuz all my hairs abandoned all my body,
Oh my agony
Know that i will never marry
And baby im just soggy from the chemo
We're counting down the days to go
It just ain't living
And i just hope you know.
That if you say -if you say-
Goodbye tonight -goodbye tonight-
Ill ask you to be true -cause Ill ask you to be true-
'Cuz the hardest part of this is leaving you
'Cuz the hardest part of this is leaving you

No no no no no no no.. She didnt bark because of nothing..
I think she barked either because.. she missed the rabbit. Or, she could hear/smell the rabbit last night.
You see, my rabbit aka the rabbit was gone when i got back from Malaysia yesterday. And we suspected theft because the gate was unlocked and opened when my dad had a padlock on it. But the funny thing was, the padlock was locked, it wasnt meddled with. It was only the lock on the gate which was not locked. Uh huh so, i guess the dog missed her or something.
But thankfully, the rabbit was found again.
It is the more than 20th time she ran away and it is the more than 20th time she came back safe and soundly. Thanks to the kind security guards and the kind children living in the estate. These are the people who always go running for the rabbit and getting cuts and bruises everywhere, thank you very much, my rabbit would have been dead without you people. I hope they dont change the security guards again. There were some assholes(security guards) that catch the stray cats around the condo and throw them out in the wild a few years back. And it was only up to us children to save the cats. We fed them, played with them, took care of them and we tried to prevent them from being caught by the damn assholes. But most of the time to no avail because the cats werent smart enough. The only smart cat was Mimi. She got sent to the SPCA at last as well.. and Suzan and I were partly at fault. Damn it. I regret __________________ and i believe Suzan also regrets..
Haiz. I miss how we went around looking for cats..
Now? I am so busy. We are so busy. I dont like being busy. Do you?

They allow her to bark and bark and bark and now shes barking non stop.
Damn it.

-edited-
or maybe not..

Just SING SING SING and everything will be alright.
Just sing.

We will sing, sing, sing, and make music with the heavens, we will sing sing sing.

Thank you for the music, the songs im singing.
Thanks for all the joy they're bringing.
Who can live without it, i ask in all honesty.
What would life be?

Oh and one more thing, i think im supposed to blog something like: I love Fang Yuwen.

Goodbye, goodbye everyone.
I'll be back.
Dont miss me.

So nice to have a chat with a good friend after a really long time. To find out how one another's doing, to find out whether we all are doing fine. And to talk about the good old times and to complain and complain and complain. Somehow, i think complaining is a good way of bonding.
Complain, Agree with complaint, Bond. So weird.. but kind of true i guess.
I miss primary school.
I miss Ch'ng.
I miss Mrs Wong and Chu chu train.
Life sucks.

L~o~v~e~♥ Why, who knows love.


vanessa: tag tag. yayyay thxgving comingC:
23 Nov 09, 23:13
vanessa: heheh but she IS pretty.
23 Nov 09, 23:12
vanessa: hahaha, you watched? it's funneh!! i dun reali like lady gaga
im actually not very sure whether i like her or not.. yessssss shes very pretty. AND YES I WATCHED IT.


23 Nov 09, 21:17
BeiYi: HELLO AMANDA!! :D
Hi.


23 Nov 09, 18:04
cassandra ?? guess who ??: harh girl!!! you look really aunty with your hair tied up like that !!! pls tie higher leh!!! i think you will look nicer !!!
And what right do you have to call me 'girl'. FUCK OFF


23 Nov 09, 17:34
IzadoraCWXツ: DARLINGGGG~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Hello.



23 Nov 09, 09:54
Sharmain: Relink, thx. :)
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23 Nov 09, 00:53
Dominic: WHAT YOU WANT?!
Nothing.



22 Nov 09, 20:40
xiaohui: hello
Hi.



22 Nov 09, 18:29
Cherlynn: Cheeer up and up and up!!! <3
Thank you thank you <3



22 Nov 09, 12:30
w: being =( is so not AmandaA..
and it is so not cheryl either.. i dont like AmandaA, prefer amandaa.



22 Nov 09, 10:28
Daphne .: ASSADKASNKDSANDNQWKNKDNQWAS .


What la.



22 Nov 09, 00:47
SiHui: TAGGED.
22 Nov 09, 00:47
SiHui: TAGGED.
22 Nov 09, 00:47
SiHui: TAGGED.
22 Nov 09, 00:47
SiHui: TAGGED.
22 Nov 09, 00:47
SiHui: TAGGED.
22 Nov 09, 00:47
SiHui: TAGGED.
:)



22 Nov 09, 00:00
yuwen`: i see my stupid retarded face . LOL .
Your face is not stupid and retarded



21 Nov 09, 23:41
Nicole: NO. ai choir will not tear apart. there is still me and cheryl and the whole committee supporting. WE will not let AICHOIR to crash. NO. WE WONT!
Ha.



21 Nov 09, 14:47
DILYS: HIIIIIIII :)
Hi.



20 Nov 09, 17:12
Dylan: Tagged
20 Nov 09, 17:12
Dylan: Tagged
Thank you.



20 Nov 09, 13:40
Jia Tyan!: hey amanda :D relink me yeah ? :DD
20 Nov 09, 13:37
Jia Tyan!: Hey amanda, tags :D relink me kays? :DD
Ok


20 Nov 09, 11:33
Daphne .: POST LA , AND to "hi" PUT YOUR NAME LA .
Lol......



19 Nov 09, 14:15
hi: bye
19 Nov 09, 14:15
hi: [c=pink]HELLO[/c]
19 Nov 09, 14:15
hi: HELLO
19 Nov 09, 14:14
hi: HELLO
Who the hell are you. I hate anonymous tags. Assholes.



19 Nov 09, 09:21
Daphne .: -.- .
-.- .

18 Nov 09, 22:16
{☆} Elin ': Hey Sis =) Taq
Yo. Thanks.



18 Nov 09, 20:28
Daphne .: -.- .
-.- .

18 Nov 09, 19:57
Shermin!: Ello~! tagged!
Hey.



18 Nov 09, 14:44
Dylan: Tags :D
Thank you.



17 Nov 09, 21:46
Daphne .: tag !!!! askjdnjnasdnsandnqwjnkel wmaklsdmalsmda
Thank you.



17 Nov 09, 00:05
SiHui: DARL :D
:)

Lady gaga is beautiful.
I love her eyes.

Ai choir, ai choir.
It is my first year with you. (It has been one year with you)
You guys, and Miss Ong have taught me alot of things. Really.
It was kind of bonded when i first joined Ai choir and now.. its tearing apart.
It is tearing apart.
We are tearing apart.
Why?
I dont know.
I dont want to know.
I know im feigning ignorance, but whatever.
I wonder if we're torn apart already?
I dont know, but i know we're tearing apart.
I dont want ai choir to tear apart..

i dont want to finish this post.
because it rly is a stab in my heart.

16 Nov 09, 21:51
Dominic: TAGGED!!
16 Nov 09, 19:56
DILYS: IM NOT USED TO IT HAHAHA.
16 Nov 09, 19:56
DILYS: HI AMANDA. ITS BEEN LONG SINCE YOU TAGGED MY BLOG OR RATHER SPAMMED.
15 Nov 09, 12:14
Daphne .: TAGGGGGG YOU !
15 Nov 09, 12:14
Daphne .: I TAG TATG TAG !
15 Nov 09, 12:14
Daphne .: ITAGGED YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU .
15 Nov 09, 12:14
Daphne .: ITAGGED YOU !!
15 Nov 09, 12:14
Daphne .: ITAGGED YOU
15 Nov 09, 12:14
Daphne .: I TAG-ED YOU
14 Nov 09, 19:50
Nicole: HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY! :D
10 Nov 09, 22:20
Claudia: If you do read my blog, pls link me. the code is at my first post. thanks. :)
10 Nov 09, 22:20
Claudia: Thanks girl.
9 Nov 09, 23:38
BeiYi: TAGGED~ (:
9 Nov 09, 21:00
su zan: tagged back :)
9 Nov 09, 20:30
Bvlyn.: HEY! <3
9 Nov 09, 17:33
Dilys: hi
8 Nov 09, 23:00
Daphne .: <3<3 ~
8 Nov 09, 01:31
Nina !: choir*
8 Nov 09, 01:31
Nina !: AMANDAAAAA ! :D Yoyos. Missed you alots eh ! :) Seeya in chor.
7 Nov 09, 13:54
Daphne .: u didn;t freeze your plurk , u naughty ass .
7 Nov 09, 13:50
Daphne .: tag , ~
7 Nov 09, 08:56
Mingjing's (!): Twinney' Tagged(:
3 Nov 09, 14:45
Dylan: Tags, takecaree ;D
3 Nov 09, 14:03
Shermin(:: YO! tagged..hope to cya soon!! :D
3 Nov 09, 01:27
SiHui: HURRY COME BACK !
3 Nov 09, 01:27
SiHui: BADDIEE
2 Nov 09, 15:12
QINGWEN!: Hey there! :)
1 Nov 09, 20:29
Terry: hey ya! tagged! [:
1 Nov 09, 10:09
Daphne .: tagg , :B .
31 Oct 09, 14:56
Dylan: Tags, Happy Halloween!
30 Oct 09, 19:48
YEEXUAN: LOLOL!
30 Oct 09, 19:48
YEEXUAN: Hey there please do support my blogshop yeah ? http://www.shop-tillyoudrunk.blogspot.com/
30 Oct 09, 19:38
Daphne .: *Hey there please do support my blogshop yeah ? http://www.shop-tillyoudrunk.blogspot.com/ ,
28 Oct 09, 21:36
Mingjing's (!): Twinney' Tagged <3
28 Oct 09, 16:33
♥ ; VIVIENNN./♥: Hello , please relink me at http://bangbang-hearts.blogspot.com . Thankyouverymuch . (:
26 Oct 09, 12:13
YEEXUAN: RELINK PLEASE! www.xuaneh.blogspot.com (:
25 Oct 09, 11:34
♥ ; VIVIENNN./♥: Heyyoh taddybear ! :D
24 Oct 09, 21:20
{☆} Elin ': Yoh Sis! Taqqqqqq! =D
24 Oct 09, 18:29
beiyi: Taggies!!!
24 Oct 09, 11:21
Dylan: Yosh! Tag, Back :)

Thank you.
will relink asap.


16 Nov 09, 20:51
Nazri: THANK YOUUUUUUU! <3333
Ya la ya la love you.

14 Nov 09, 18:50
Dominic: EH I DIDNT KNOW IT WAS UR BIRD DAY! SORRY! HAPPY BELATED BIRD DAY BTW~
14 Nov 09, 18:50
Dominic: :DDD
STUPID BLUR OLD MAN. YOU ALREADY WISHED ME IN FACEBOOK. Thanks for double wish though. :)

13 Nov 09, 22:17
Amirah Sabrina: THRILLER~ HAHAHAHA!
Mj mj~

10 Nov 09, 18:46
Daphne .: midnight . <3 .
This tag sounds so wrong. ♥

10 Nov 09, 18:04
Anonymous: Wow, I can see you're a pretty talented girl. (:
Thank you. Though i have no idea what talent you see in me. Who are you man.

10 Nov 09, 13:40
QINGWEN!: The ice-cream looks delicious! :)
Of course. Its for Daphne. Haha

10 Nov 09, 10:20
Dominic: ommgggg!! that 8 Nov post so sweeeet!!
Duh! Jealous right. hahaaaa

9 Nov 09, 19:21
w: somehow, im not surprised that you were caught for your hair. Hahaha.
We couldnt have our hair beyond our collars last year and my hair always went beyond the collar so..

1 Nov 09, 23:59
SiHui: WHAT . YOU'RE GOING MALAYSIA AND YOU DIDN'T TELL ME :(
You ownself dunno. Blur darling.

1 Nov 09, 20:48
Nazri: yalor. i feel the same way... (LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL)
Extra la dey.

1 Nov 09, 20:00
Jiatyan ;D: Tags :D mr ng will be so touched to see that post . but i kinda feel the same way, except i wasn't there o.O
No! It would be so damn weird if he ever sees it.

1 Nov 09, 18:32
Dilys: I have the exact same sentiments.
1 Nov 09, 18:32
Dilys: Honestly right,I actually felt veryveryvery weird too this year when we left the class. I have no idea why,like its abit contradicting but yes idk why too.
Haha but at the same time, i dont want him to teach us next year because he sucks at teaching.

1 Nov 09, 01:29
yeechin: who is this mr ng? what subject did he teach . lol.
Tuition teacher. English

27 Oct 09, 16:55
angeline: sameeeee. she damn noisey. cant she juz take the letter & shut up for goodness sake.
27 Oct 09, 16:55
angeline: same type wif mrs chew, haha.
Yeah what the hell. Mrs chew's better than her.

26 Oct 09, 17:42
SiHui: ILY DARL :)
26 Oct 09, 17:42
SiHui: DON'T CHEAT ON ME HORHORHOR ! I KILL YOUUUUUU :P
26 Oct 09, 17:41
SiHui: MINEEEEEEEE
26 Oct 09, 17:41
SiHui: AMANDAAAA !!!
I never cheat on you lor. I love youuuuuuuu.

25 Oct 09, 13:19
angeline: i've no idea. i seems to hate noise recently. haha, why 34?
Class position.

26 Oct 09, 01:17
w: it will be the hairiest clover ever, i suppose.
26 Oct 09, 01:16
w: i think that is the first four leaf clover anyone had ever given me. Aww.
Touched? :)

24 Oct 09, 18:38
beiyi: So fast want sec 2 already. Haiz..
Precisely

24 Oct 09, 13:39
w: why you underline fathope? Should bold and underline thin faith.
Double reply! I didnt underline, i striked it offffffffffffff.

24 Oct 09, 01:11
Nicole: 34, this number is familar. hahah!
Of course it is.

i think about things every second of my life lately? Well, maybe not lately.. i think thoughts run through my mind ever since i was born. i really like it when my mind's blank and you know, the only time my mind's blank's during math tuition at home. My mind would go off and there wouldnt be anything going on in my head. Ah i just love how that feels. :)

Oh yes and i think im supposed to blog about how great Nazri is?
Ok fine, Nazri is the best brother i have ever got. <3

You know when you pick up a rock, and theres all this disgusting bugs and worms crawling around under it? Thats what looking inside peoples' heads is like.

- Legend of the Seeker


How true.
Hey, do you believe in magic?
Because i do.
i dont know how or why? But i feel that magic is part of our lives.
Yes i know, there is no such thing as a wave of the wand and poof! your wish comes true. And neither are there potions that make you live for a thousand years or ones that could turn you into frogs.
But dont you think our lives would be full of excitement and danger if magic had really existed?
I really detest my dull, dull life.. or rather our dull, dull lives.

i want adventure.
i need thrill.

It's close to midnight
and something evil's lurking in the dark
Under the moonlight,
you see a sight that almost stops your heart
You try to scream
but terror takes the sound before you make it
You start to freeze
as horror looks you right between the eyes
You're paralyzed
Cause this is thriller.

i am touched.

To you-
My dearest friend
Happy birthday Daphne. :)

Remember? When we were young?
Remember. When we first met?
i remember. Do you remember?

Remember when you asked me this in Primary 5?
You asked me this:
Are you my best friend?

And i replied:
No, my best friends are all from the other classes.

And then you asked me:
Then are you my good friend?

And i said:
Yeah, i think so..

Haha.. it must have hurt you a whole lot i guess(i think).
Remember? Do you remember?
I think you can remember.
I hope you can remember.
Remember the May/June/July attendance incident?
Remember when Mrs Wong was going to scold me?
Remember when someone(either andrew or amanda) wrote July when it was actually May on the attendance sheet? Remember how unreasonable Mrs Wong was? You spoke up for me. And i appreciate it. Thank you.
I can remember what you said.
You said:
Mrs Wong, that isnt amanda's handwriting! It couldnt be amanda! Its andrew! Andrew wrote that!

I remember how i hated 5 Sincere and how much i hated Mrs Wong.
I remember how i hated being the monitress of the class.
But Daphne! You were always there for me.

Remember how the bitch(mdm low) used to scold me for hair almost everyday.
I can picture your worried face for me. And i loved to see how much you cared for me.
Remember how we faked Parents letters'/forged signatures for Mrs Chu.
Remember how Mrs Chu used to scream at us.
Mrs Chu told me you were a bad influence, but i knew you werent.
I knew that Daphne was good.

Remember how i made you cry.
Remember how you made me cry.
Remember how we smuggled Green tea into class.
Remember how you kissed my hand.
Remember the times spent in the Library.
Do you remember?

All of my memories keep you near.
In silent moments
Imagine you'd be here.
Your silent whispers, silent tears.

Together in all these memories,
I see your smile.
All of the memories I hold dear.
Darling you know I'll love you,
Till the end of time.

Thank you for being my friend.
I will never forget you.
Let us remain best friends forever.

FUCK OFF JUSTIN
She wouldnt want a guy as violent as you are.
Grow up, idiot.

Goodbye my sweet, sweet bed.
Goodbye Daphne.


Heading for Malaysia tomorrow.
Dont miss me.

ps. Daphne i say No.

i felt kind of weird.. when i left the room.
i know, i used to detest mr ng, but i know i will miss talking back to him, i will miss him nagging at me, scolding me. i rly am starting to miss him, i dont know why. i didnt even feel like that when we had to leave mrs tay. i guess, its the connection between people. Though he sucks as a teacher, i hope he'll be the one teaching us again next year..

You can never imagine the teacher hate+teacher love i feel for you.

i was joyless when you said this:
I might not be the one teaching you next year, and hopefully, we'll meet someday along the streets of Singapore, or somewhere along the streets of learning point.

and i rly hated it when you said Goodbye.

October seems like a very very very long month.
Strange..

"Turn and peep, turn and peep,
there’s blood within the shoe,
the shoe it is too small for her,
The true bride waits for you.”

He turned his horse round and took the false bride home again, and said she was not the true one.

“Turn and peep, turn and peep,
no blood is in the shoe,
the shoe is not too small for her,
the true bride rides with you.”

“That is the true bride!”

- From Cinderella, The Harvard Classics.

On Msn..


- Kerwin - Can we be together even you don't love me? says (7:58 PM):
• tml wip o level
• rmb to wish her good luck

at Fall for you says (7:58 PM):
• ok


so, GOOD LUCK! ALL THE BEST WIPHAPORN! You're so not going to fail amath.
And all the best too all of the sec fours/fives as well.